I do not understand!

Well I weighed in this morning and apparently I gained .9 for the week. I do not understand. I worked out like crazy this week. Probably more than any other week. Although I did have a few weird days with my sugar. I do not understand that. On the days where my calories are real low due to loss of appetite, I have the sugar attacks, then have to eat more but still on these days, or on the days in which I may go out to eat, I am still always below the calorie intake, or right at it. This week, my goal is to go from today until next Wed at least, without eating out even once, even if its a healthy place. I want to see if this makes any difference or not. This is going to be especially hard on the weekends. That is my most challenging time. Especially when we are out doing things. Wish me luck, and I am going to fight back harder this week! I need to get to the bottom of this and what is occurring and what I need to change.

Ps. We were going to go out and look for some boxing equipment today, but I may wait until Friday, for something to do to get out of the house, because I am really wanting to get a few great hours of exercise in tonight.

Amanda

Catch Up!

Well, I haven't posted in a few days, its been busy with homework etc.. On Saturday we went to the circus, and I ate a bunch of junk that day. Not anything too unhealthy and in moderation but still. On a good note though, We had went outside and did a lot of walking after we returned home, went to the gym for a while and played some basketball. It was a good day. Sunday, I did not feel so well. Spent most of the day in bed, or in front of the TV, watching my Bears lose their spot in the Superbowl. I didn't eat a whole lot, but did have Arby's for lunch that day. so I felt bad about that. Today, I tried to start things out right. I had a yogurt for breakfast (even though I usually do not eat breakfast) about half of my cup of coffee, a smart ones meal for lunch, and salad and soup for dinner. Before Dinner we had went for a long walk and lifted weights in the gym. I did not eat nearly as many calories as I was allowed for the day, but did not feel hungry either. At about 630 I began to get very blurred vision, extremely dizzy and felt like I was not breathing right, and started freezing. Of course this sent me into panic attack mode, because I am at home alone with a three year old. I was unsure whether to eat something or if it would make it worse. So I decided to have a pudding and drink some water since I had just remembered I had almost NOTHING to drink all day, even though I had not been thirsty. I have struggled with that my WHOLE life, those who know me understand. But even when I was a baby. I have been to the hospital I cannot even count how many times in my life for IV fluids and dehydration. Anyways I still was not feeeling great and realized it was probably my blood sugar and my blood pressure from working out, reducing calories etc... same thing happened a few months ago. I ate a few tortilla chips and laid on my back. After about 40 more minutes I started to feel normal again. but then, as David was coming home from work, I had him stop and get some food because I was starving, so here I ate at 10pm.. I feel so horrible! I HATE the fact that I can go for multiple testing on my blood sugars for diabetes etc.. and it always shows borderline hypoglycemic (my whole life) and things like this happen, but not when I am being tested. I know a lot of it was my blood pressure I am sure from lifting weights etc... On days when I eat a lot more, like Saturday it does not happen. The stupid thing is that I was not even hungry to eat more most of the day. So now, I try to do good and my body rejects it. I hope this pattern stops at some point. ANYWAY, thanks for listening as I ramble on. I guess we will see on Wed when I weigh in, how this awful and at the same time great week went. Tomorrow it is supposed to be severe thunderstorms and possible tornado warnings with 60mph winds. The news people said not to go outside so I guess I will just take it easy tomorrow and do some cleaning around the house to burn calories. Floors need to be mopped. I am going to take a break from homework tomorrow too! At least I am on my last week of this 4 credit insane class! 

AJ

Yesterday was great!

So yesterday we managed to stay outside in the beautiful weather for two hours, walking, lifting weights at the gym and just having fun. It felt really good. Last night, I caved a little with a snack that probably was not so healthy but I did fairly well the rest of the day so I do not think I went too much over my calorie intake, I havent added that last thing yet so we shall see. Today, has not been an easy day to get a workout in so far. However, i have been running around the house nonstop since I woke up. I have laundry going, two crockpots of my famous white chicken chili. I am taking one of them up to the clubhouse for the community chili cookoff. Hoping to win first prize of 100$ or at least second or third for less money. I am confident about winning, but I feel anxious about being around people that I do not know, especially with only Noah since David is working doubles. I just keep telling myself that it is only for a few hours and that maybe I will meet some nice people. Although much of my experience with this community has not been to my liking in the past year. Most of the people are really young couples, or rowdy college kids. So we will see. Nonetheless it is beautiful out again. So glad that we have gotten past that huge cold spell and hoping it does not return. I have actually been able to turn the heat off the past few days.

On another note, I found all of my Jillian Micheal and Biggest Loser books. Think I will start reading those again. I have my homework finished for the day and am looking forward to the second episode of Idol tonight. I just need to watch my "wanting to eat snacks" while watching television. MOst of the time they are healthy snacks, but sometimes I just want to keep eating more and more.

Ok, I think that is it for today, or for now anyways :)

A-

Inspiration

Well here is the first day to my new blogging, another step on my journey. One of my friends who is also on a new lifestyle change had started a blog and I began to read it daily and it inspired me to create my own. I believe this will help me to not only log my feelings but to be real with myself and be able to see it all in writing. I lost another 1.1lb this past week, not alot but its going in the right direction at least. Went for a few walks last week. Did about 20 minutes of cardio today with Bob Harper on my Wii Biggest Loser game. It felt good. I feel good today. Still tired though. I think I need to start using my breathing machine at night to help with that. Any more energy would be fabulous. Going to extend our walking time and length today. It is another beautiful day outside. I have been doing really well on new food items and recipes too. I think I will post some of the great recipes on here! Okay that is all for now! 

In the words of my fav boys NKOTB, Lets Get This!!!!!!!